Memorial Day 2010

And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I won’t forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
– Lee Greenwood

For love of country they accepted death…

— James A. Garfield

A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.

— Joseph Campbell

EVERY good and perfect gift is from above!

I will say it again...EVERY good and perfect gift is from above! (James 1:17)

I am still feeling so overwhelmed with joy and gratitude to my Heavenly Father for his healing touch on our Abby. Yesterday, we had the 6-week follow-up, which included a set of x-rays. I had been praying for this day for the past several weeks, not missing more than 2 or 3 days, and praying specifically that the scans would be clear and there would be no trace of the pneumonia or effusion.

I could tell that Abby was doing better and was back to herself (well, maybe a bit more rotten due to the additional attention), was not favoring her left side any longer, wasn't asking for Motrin for pain, and was sleeping through the night on a consistent basis.

The doctor entered the room and asked me some questions. Basically, he wanted to know what we were observing at home, so I described Abby as I did in the paragraph above. He, in turn, looked at me with a grin from ear to ear and said, "Well I have some great news!" He went on to say the x-ray was clear and beautiful and there was not a single trace of the pneumonia or the effusion!

We serve a mighty and loving God and the tears welled up as soon as I got into the parking lot yesterday, so grateful that He not only answered our prayers for healing but even to the very specific way I had been praying.

This has been a long journey and I have learned that I have one tough little girl. The doctor said she had probably been sick for a while before we actually began to see the symptoms, which was basically a high fever that hit very suddenly. He was careful in his word selection (as he actually said so out loud), but again reminded us that Abby's case of pneumonia was a very bad and serious case. The doctors were thrilled to see how things turned out in the end and will be using her scans in teaching students and residents in their facility.

Of course, I'm not amazed in the same way as the doctors...I know Who and How this happened...I am amazed that sometimes I have so little faith in what my God can do.

Praise the Lord, O my soul;

all my inmost being, praise his holy name.

Praise the Lord, O my soul,

and forget not all his benefits-

who forgives all your sins

and heals all your diseases,

who redeems your life from the pit

and crowns you with love and compassion,

who satisfies your desires with good things

so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

Psalm 103:1-5

Our Intro to Clean Eating...

A friend recently told me about "Clean Eating" magazine. I just received my first issue and it's packed with recipes. Last night, we tried the first "Clean Eating" recipe. This appears in the May/June 2010 issue. All five of us loved it, which if you have children, know this is an accomplishment! I just added some homemade guacamole, a spoonful of salsa on the side and a few (less than 10) organic blue corn chips to go with the guac/salsa...yum, yum! Enjoy!

Black Bean Tostadas

with chipotles and corn

1 cup cooked black beans

1 tsp chipotle pepper, minced

1/2 tsp cumin, ground

1/2 tsp chile powder

2 tsp fresh lime juice, divided

1/2 cup frozen corn kernels, thawed

1 multigrain sandwich thin or round (both halves), toasted

1 oz low-fat cheddar cheese, grated

1 cup frisee, washed, dried and torn (I used green leaf lettuce)

1 cup cherry tomatoes, halved

1. In a food processor or medium bowl, puree or mash beans. Add chipotle, cumin, chile powder and 1 tsp lime juice, and mix well. Add bean mixture to a small pan and warm gently, stirring, over medium-low heat.

2. Warm corn in another small pan over medium-low heat.

3. Divide bean mixture between 2 halves of sandwich thin, spreading evenly. Place halves, bean-side-up, on a plate. Top with cheese and corn, dividing evenly. Sprinkle remaining 1 tsp lime juice over frisee (or lettuce), then scatter evenly over halves. Garnish with tomatoes and serve immediately.

You will not be disappointed and will add this

to your list of go-to recipes!

Reflecting...

Does your life ever get so busy that you don't have the time to organize your own thoughts? It seems that way in our household lately. It's been a while since my last post, but I've had many thoughts bouncing around in my head, just not enough time to organize them into something of substance.

I have spent a great deal of time reflecting over the events of the past several weeks. Sometimes hindsight is 20/20 and sometimes, it's just plain unbelievable. I have to say that I have gained a greater compassion for those who have children suffering with an illness or challenge of some sort. I also have had a small sample of what it tastes like to have a healthy child in one moment and a very sick child in the next moment without any warning. (Although, maybe a warning really wouldn't be a good thing...with events like this, sometimes, being "surprised" gets you to the place you need to be to make it through.)

Looking back to the time that Abby began to be sick, I cannot help but offer full and overwhelming praise to the Lord for his provision, his healing, and the mere fact that He carried us through to the other side. He brought us through in an amazing way and there's no other person or place to give the glory. Abby's case of pneumonia coupled with an effusion (never heard that word until a few weeks ago) have amazed her doctors, both in Tennessee and here in Ohio. I am grateful that the doctors in Tennessee were conservative in their approach to surgery and allowed her body to begin to heal on its own. I am grateful that the doctors here in Ohio were comfortable with the previous decisions and continued with the healing process. We have been told that Abby's case of pneumonia and the presence of her effusion was a very serious case. One doctor even commented that this was the worst case she had seen. Our doctor here has said that every patient he has had with this amount of pneumonia and fluid has either been on IV antibiotics at home or had a chest tube surgically placed.

I am overwhelmed with gratitude for the healing the Lord has done with our sweet Abby, even to the point of not needing any invasive medical treatment. We have one more x-ray next week and I've been praying daily that the scans will be clear and any trace of pneumonia or fluid is gone and she will not have any lifelong effects (i.e., asthma, etc.).

I have to say, however, I feel as if my reflections over the past few weeks have been concentrated more on what it would be like to have a child who is sick, who is constantly in and out of the hospital, who is more familiar with doctors than with other children his/her own age. I have only tasted 7 days of what it would be like to live this way, the stress and emotions that immediately escalate every time the door opens and a doctor walks in.

I have been following the blog of a beautiful little girl who is fighting a battle with cancer. You can read all about her on her family's website here. Please be warned...you will fall in love with her big, beautiful blue eyes. Her parents are believers and the sharing of their faith is incredible. I have often wondered and even said aloud, "I don't know how people can get through this life without faith in Jesus Christ". This world can be so difficult and so painful. We all need a Savior to carry us through the difficult times.

One thing I learned during this time is that a simple gesture of kindness goes a long way. Emails, voice mails, comments on my Facebook, etc. were what I looked forward to during that week. Those messages and prayers gave me the encouragement and the boost I needed to keep going and to be reminded that God was/is in control. Knowing that others were sharing my burden and praying to our Father on my behalf was like food to my soul. If you know someone in your life who is going through a difficult time, don't miss the opportunity to be the love of Christ to them. A simple card or email will go a long way (even if they don't reply). It may be the very thing at the very right moment in time that gives them the confidence that was fleeing.

I am just as baffled as anyone and can get just as angry as anyone when I know or hear of a sick child. It doesn't seem fair to me, it doesn't seem right. I came across this verse in Ecclesiastes this week: "As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." ~Ecclesiastes 11:5 This is so true! I cannot understand the work of Him, but I can understand and believe that He is the Maker of all things. I know that He loves His creation because I've read it in the Bible. I also know that children are adored and loved by Him. Mark 10:16 says "And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them." I will never understand the suffering of children, but I do understand that their Maker loves them even more than a mother's love.

This post has been so random, I know. I just want to encourage you to reach out to those around you who may be going through a difficult time. Don't be afraid and don't let the opportunity pass. Pray for the children who are sick, like sweet Kate. One day, our eyes will be opened, one day our understanding will be deeper. For now, I will continue to question, but my answer for this life will be faith.

What will you choose?

Feeling Saucy?

This is a brand new company that just opened this past weekend. Check out their website...a huge selection of sauces, marinades, peanut butters, jellies, salsas, cooking oils and more! And, know that 10% of the company's profit is given to charity and you can have a say in which charity your purchase will support. My order is on it's way and I can't wait to try the Mango Key Lime Marinade. The word on the street is that this is divine...will have to add it to my next order!

We're Home!

We made it home after a 12 hour drive yesterday. So glad to be here! Abby is having quite a bit of pain and we have a doctor's appointment here today. It breaks my heart to see her in such pain and to hold her and pick her up makes it worse. Tylenol and Motrin are helping, but their effects are running out before it's time for the next dose. I know each day will be better than the one before, I just hate to see her in pain.

We were greeted yesterday by balloons and signs and dinner from our amazing neighbors! It was a perfect welcome home and we are so thankful for these relationships. I cannot say thank you enough to all of you who have been praying for us. We have felt so surrounded by love and support. Your prayers, emails, texts, phone calls, cards, gifts, etc. have been so timely and have been a breath of fresh air during this difficult week.

Blessings to you all!

Happy Easter 2010!

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

~John 3:16

Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.

~Acts 4:12

Today is an amazing day...Easter! Today, we celebrate Jesus conquering death, rising to new life. Because of this amazing miracle, I have been given the gift of eternal life through my Savior, Jesus Christ! One day, I will also have a resurrection...what an amazing day that will be!

Thank you, Lord, for providing a way for my sins to be forgiven, for sending your son to live as a man and die a horrible death, and for bringing him back to life again! Somehow, thank you doesn't seem like near enough.

Abby's doing so much better today! After a much-needed night of sleep away from the hospital, I received the best phone call...Abby's voice letting me know the Easter Bunny had come to her hospital room. She ate breakfast, she's up and playing, getting her toes painted, laughing and talking, and bossing me around! Hallelujah!

The doctor is considering a release of today or tomorrow...so thankful! The looming threat of a chest tube seems to be behind us as long as today continues to be a good one. Eating and drinking and keeping down oral antibiotics will be the key to a successful day.

I cannot thank you all enough for your prayers, phone calls, Facebook messages, balloons, gifts, a cozy bed in a welcoming home, a visit from the Easter Bunny and positive thoughts! Jason and I have had an overwhelming amount of peace throughout this ordeal.

Happy Easter! Enjoy your egg hunts, Easter frocks, deviled eggs, family and friends. Hug your loved ones a little longer today!

Feeling Weary...

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

~Matthew 11:28-30

Feeling a bit weary and just wanting my little girl to be well! The doctor just left the room and delivered the news that we will definitely be here until tomorrow. Abby's appetite has not returned at all and the doctor is fairly certain it's due to the infection. X-rays today show the fluid to be the same. Good news is the pneumonia has not progressed.

The dreaded "chest tube" was mentioned again today. I thought we were out of the realm of that happening. My weary-worry-o-meter just shot up. Immediately, the Lord whispered the verse above in my ear.

Many of you have asked how Emily and Ben are doing. They have been troopers, but are definitely getting restless and bored. It's hard enough to have a sick child in the hospital, but it's a million times harder to be on the road, away from home, with a 6 and 9-year-old who need entertaining. Jason and I don't have the energy or desire to entertain them, but press on, we will...

The doctor complimented us for our positive attitudes and asked how we do it, saying they don't see that often. Kind of ironic that in that very moment, I felt the urge to throw something...not at her, mind you...just a random act of throwing things...maybe a little rebellion coming out, who knows!

Please continue to pray for us and thank you so much for praying!

UPDATED: A Different Kind of Easter Dress...

Many share the tradition of donning a new Easter dress and Easter shoes. For those of us who stick to that silly fashion rule, it's the first day we're "allowed" to wear white shoes. So, my girls have new dresses, new white shoes, and Ben has a new shirt (boys are so much easier!). But, it looks as if Abby will be wearing an Easter dress of a different kind this year...her hospital gown. While I'm really holding out hope that we will be at least on the road towards home, I'm also keeping my feet on the ground so reality doesn't knock me in the face.

To catch you up, if you are unaware...we were on the return home from our two week road trip to Texas and Abby somehow contracted pneumonia, oh and not just pneumonia, a HUGE case of pneumonia. But, if you know my Abby, everything she does is huge, so why wouldn't this also be?

We are riding the rollercoaster called the "watch and see what happens". We are riding the fence between improving with antibiotics and the insertion of a chest tube. Oh, and did I mention...we are not home?!?

God is providing great things...excellent medical care, a free place for us to stay (thanks to a dear friend's mom), two very cooperative older siblings (complete with minimal bickering), peace beyond comprehension for this usually high-strung anxious Mommy, and an amazing abundance of people praying just for Abby and our family.

We have seen some improvement today and need several things to happen before we're released. Abby's had a good day, but a rough evening. We need to see her fever staying low, Abby self-hydrating (no IV), her blood culture to remain negative, no need of oxygen (sats staying high), and no other random issue arising. I thought we were almost in the clear today, but tonight, her fever is back, she is in pain and she is back on the IV because she's still refusing to drink (also refusing to eat).

Thank you to those who are already praying and thank you to those of you who will start praying now. I will try and update here as I'm able.

UPDATE: As of this morning (Saturday), Abby has made HUGE improvements and I am 100% certain it's the power of your prayers that is increasing her healing process. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

The doctor this morning said that Abby's pneumonia was the worst case she's seen. Now, we need her to eat and drink. If she will begin to eat and drink, we will be released with antibiotics and can continue our trip home. We have about 12 hours of driving ahead of us and will break it up over two days to keep her as comfortable as possible.

Reflecting on the Sacrifice...

Being on the road this week is taking the place of what we usually experience during Holy Week. It's hard to get into the spirit of Holy Week with 7 wild and crazy kids around me this week. However, we are thankful for the gift of family and enjoying our time with our cousins. So, this video sent to me today from a dear friend is perfect timing. It's so difficult to watch, but I long to soak in a fraction of the depth of pain to keep my eyes focused on Him and His love for me. Take some time to see this...somehow, getting the eggs dyed might not be the most important thing after doing so.